The future...but first the past.

I had multiple reasons for quitting my job. It was not the easiest decision to make, and yes I did not give the proper two weeks notice...but i had to do what was best for me.
The organization I was working for was already on shaky ground(Paycuts, job cuts for full time staff, etc)
Yet somehow they managed to get money to redecorate the community hall, while it is likely a donation, it was a perfectly functional space. One person comments that it isn't 'elegant' enough, and someone coughs up the funds to make it far more fancy, while we the little people are suffering at the hands of some red tape.
Two-The shifts were ridiculous-early afternoons here, mornings there. Not to mention that even trying to get shift coverage was a joke. I at some point gave up even asking, and was coming in sick often. Masking it became an art form. My commute was hard-two buses each way, not to mention that coming home at 9pm while i live in the hood(yea it is the f-ing hood) is not the most safe for me.
Third-I was attempting to look like I wanted to go somewhere there. I was picking up assignments, picking up shifts without question, making points at the meetings,etc. And it didn't seem to make a difference.
Fourth-Double Standards. Ok, so soandso can come in and not come to the desk for 30 f-ing minutes, while she is on the clock? Just wanders around the building, and acts like she is working when she is not. I got so sick of this BS, I mentioned it to my supervisor, but does she do anything..NO! Not to mention said person not coming to the MANDATORY meetings, and gets away with it more then once!

So basically I am done with this. I have said my piece. And I am moving on.
I am going back to school, and that is all I have to say about that.

Life in the Augustus

Yea, I know the title makes no sense-but here is a recap of August(not counting the one thing that hasn't happened.)

-Wedding #1 Dale and Beth's Wedding-I was a guest-Jay was a usher. I wish I had pics of him in his tux. He looked so handsome! *Squee!* The wedding was nice, the reception was fun but I had a few too many glasses of riesling and passed out at 10pm. Thankfully our freind Joe had a room, so the guys stayed up til 2am drinking and being guys. Horrible hangover the next morning.

-Gen Con- Hotel was nice, but too far away(we were by the airport this year). We got the new Rouge Trader book, the game is alot of fun-think 'Pirates in Space'. My character is called 'Lorayne Thornhallow'. She kicks some serious butt as the bodyguard of Rachsus Thorne!
Didn't get to do everything I wanted to, but I still had a good time. Next year though I am not missing Hentai Dubbing!

Wedding(reception)#2 Dan and Mary: This was a rough one, basically had not time to change or get ready as we had to go straight there after we got back from Indy. I managed to pull myself together. We had alot of fun, Jay and I had a bit too much...so we stumbled home and slept it off.

Wedding #3(one week from Saturday)-Best freind getting married-first time being a bridesmaid. Will update on the event after it happens.

Work-ready to quit this piece of shit....

My day started like any other day-

NOT!
-Courthouse promptly at 8am, waited for over a hour in this stupid small claims court to hear my name called, and asked if i could reschedule for next month...when I have an attorney this time! I will not go unrepresented!!
-Went to Planned Parenthood and got me some DEPO! I am happy that I don't have to think about this anymore, I worry bout the weight gain, but I figure if I keep doing what I am doing I will be fine.
-Visited the boyfreind @ his work...he was happy about the birth control-now it is a two way street! He and I talked about Gen Con and how awesome it is going to be-15 more days!!!
JAIME-You would so go to this with me if you could right???
Mike Nelson is going to be there doing a overtrack during a screening of Plan 9 from Outer Space!!!
There is Hentai Dubbing, Star Trek 2 :The Wrath of Khan, and the Princess Bride!

There is just too much to do you know?!!
I cannot wait to get the F-k outta here!

And i will FINALLY make it to Bristol Renn Faire this year...it will be on Saturday, i managed to snag one day off before my vacation(i need it!).

New picture of me-from the Christmas in July Show on 7/19/09

So here I am looking less like Les(haha), in my most recent show with the Brew City Bombshells. I think this one is my favorite of all, false eyelashes are so awesome...though they are hard to wear with glasses.

I am trying to get through the muck of life...i keep trying. But it gets harder every week.

Keep shaking and shimmying!

I just want things to improve in my life.

-Is it so hard to want for better? I feel like I have been trying and trying...I dont know why I feel overwhelmed lately-I mean I know one thing-bankruptcy-which is scary. But what is even scarier, is the letters and phone calls constantly hounding me.
I had to reschedule with the lawyer for next week, and I have been calling the collectors to inform them of the situation. So I am attempting to follow through with everything in the proper way.
-I just want a normal life again, and i want to feel like I will be somebody better after this is all done. I feel like it just takes the life away from me, almost like the looking-over-your-shoulder feeling. Like at any moment someone will come and take your life away(in court).

Aside from all of this, I had a lovely three day weekend. Thursday i went to see Rancid at Summerfest. Bumped into Kate for the first time in awhile, all was calm and civil and we did some catching up. Later my freind Karen asked me if it was weird to see her, and I told her not at all. Yes the first few months last year were hard, and we did not speak for some time. But we have moved foward in our lives, and I want us to remain freinds. Besides- it was Jay that found her in the front while he was looking for people he would know-I came back from a trip to the restroom to see him and Kate talking and hanging out, and we all talked and had a good time.
-Friday I just stayed home and did nothing.
Saturday was better, I got paid, so I went to the bank. Met my freind(and hopeful future roommate Sarah) down at the Downtown bookstore. We did a little shopping(I bought some VHS tapes and a book for Jay, she got a top at Rainbow), then we went apartment shopping together...we called a few places, and one place Sarah is going to be looking at today. We then ended the day eating Chinese food and drinking PBRs while watching Dukes of Hazard(the movie). I fell asleep at 845.

As for this week...lots of phone calls, hopefully meeting with the lawyer this week...we shall see which way the road turns.

Hey Big Spender-Spend a little time with a lawyer!

Sorry to cop out a line from Chicago-that is from 'chicago' the musical right?
Anyhoo-I meet with the lawyer this week, a bit nervous as I don't feel totally prepared. I will call him once more before we meet on Friday.

The show this week sucked-rain made less people show, not to mention I didn't feel like I did a good job at all. We have a meeting next week to discuss everything that happened-but July should be great- we are having Clownvis host our show...more on that later.

Worked a show with Jay at Zad's Roadhouse-was alot of fun, and thankfully it ended early enough.
I had to work all day today at JCC, also applied for more jobs...but what is the point...seriously?
No one is biting-I think my resume needs a makeover.

Quick Blurbs on Life for Me.

-Jay came home-sadly his grandfather went into the hospital when he came back. Had to go to Iowa Wednesday, his grandad passed away Thursday.
-Friday I did alot of stuff-continued the odyssey that is painting my room. I got more done, but there are two walls that I have to wait on; one that is damaged and one that is in a odd alcove shape. So I will embark on those likely soon. Later I went to Jay's, then later he came over and we watched Desperately Seeking Susan-which he had never seen. He liked it.
Saturday we spent running around, later that night we went out and did kareoke. Then we went to his freind Nikki' s party-we had WOP which is some strong stuff...I think i had like three sips of it before I put it down.
I didn't sleep too well last night, went home this morning about 6am-ate some breakfast and had a BOOST drink(was a little hungover); woke up at 9am took a shower then went to work.

tonite-hopefully will get to Jay's graduation party after work, if I can get a ride.
(crosses fingers).